i got up at 6am this morning and went to the gym. i was surprised that i wasnt that tired when i got up, and of course the walk to the gym woke me up. although i do have to lay my clothes out the night before; i can’t really handle trying to decide what to wear when i first wake up. but anyway, i went and had a good workout. i was hoping the immediate effect would be to tire me out so much that i wouldn’t have the energy to get pissed off. but no, didn’t work that way. i still arrived at work in a bad mood. it passed though, and now i am mostly fine. i will see how many days i can keep this up.
February 2005
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i am going to try a new routine of going to the gym in the morning, starting tomorrow. i used to do this about a year and a half ago, back when i was happy, and had a reason to get up in the morning. now all i want to do is sleep. but i refuse to give in to this depression gripping my soul. i will get up, dammit, and i will work out! it is the only thing that makes me feel sane. so leaving it until 6pm is stupid. i have to spend the whole day in a half-crazed stressed out and depressed state, only to work out at 6 and have a few hours of happiness at home. enough! i will work out in the morning, and be happy for the rest of the day!
I am having classloader issues. These issues are causing me pain on the entire right side of my body, from my head, to my neck, down to my right arm, through to the tip of my pinky, and my body throbs as I type this. I can’t take much more of this today.
In other news, I have been listening to “Rock and Roll” by Eric Hutchinson non-stop today. The chorus just makes me calm. I would say happy, but I am in too much pain to be happy. So, calm. My favorite line is, “…they fall in love as they fall in bed, and if they wanna rock, they rock, and if they wanna roll, they roll…”
I am very much looking forward to a glass of wine tonight…although since Elizabeth cancelled, that leaves more wine for Matt and me to share. Nice.
Apologies for the absence, but I had nephews to attend to in San Diego.
Operation Bird-In-Motion was initially a failure, the video phone being too far from said bird to accurately capture voice and image. However, opportunity presented itself to us later at lunch time in the form of an impromptu visit by Bird herself. Quality was still not perfect, but good enough to capture a certain quaver.